‘Throw your sticks and stones, throw your bombs and your blows. But you’re not going to break my soul’
Let the criticisms come because it’s what improves you as a person. Theres two ways you can look at it – negatively or positively. Cry and get it over with. Come out stronger. What doesn’t kill you makes you stronger.
That was what I told Farah and Qistina when I was on the way home after the full run for NDOC. It kinda got everyone down but I think it seems to have gotten better today. Guess yesterday’s been a really long Friday. Didn’t go to school because I’ve been accompanying my grandma who was in the hospital. She’s finally discharged so at least I don’t have to run to so many places anymore.
Headed to school for NDOC preview/sound check/full run and I felt it was pretty much screwed. Before we even ended, Zaini went on about how bad and unacceptable the performance was. I didn’t know how to react, it’s like I tried my best to interpret how I should be on stage but I really have no idea. I broke down right after his comment, and I felt so stupid to have done so. I kinda agreed with what he said, but I just didn’t know how to do it. I’m a failure as a performer. Whatever it is, it’s over. I need to practise what I have ‘preached’ to Farah and Qis, so I’m going to take in whatever help I can get from Zai and Vic. I’m going to prove Zaini wrong.
I’m still in the stage where I’m learning how to get better as a performer. I have a direction of what I want to do, I just need the time to accomplish it. Every internals, I aim to take one of my flaws from vocals and performance down. It’s not going to be easy but the process and the end result will be so fulfilling.